Much more awake today, thank goodness. Especially since Sev has to attend his son's school fair tonight, so I am on my own. Well. Not entirely on my own. He did make me a Mai Tai before he left, which eases the sting of running Day 3 of the Week of the Killer Quizzes without his assistance.

...The man is a potions master, so you can imagine just how delicious his Mai Tais are.

Tonight's quizzes are...weird...so a little alcohol is very welcome. Shall we?

The Sword Swallower Your act is showy and dramatic, a spectacle that is not to be forgotten! What a perfect way to tackle your resounding fear of fading into nothingness! You live your life not expecting your love to be returned. You were taught to give, not take, and that damaging mentality will just not go away! You crave a connection that will never fade, but you can't allow yourself to be vulnerable enough to actually seek it out. You swallow your sword to have an excuse not to speak. You swallow your sword to show others your talent, to give joy to others, but does your life give joy to yourself?

Which Circus Performer Are You?

Yikes. Some of this doesn't feel like me: I'm not really afraid of fading into nothingness, and I don't see myself flashily distracting people from my silence or my sadness. But I do sometimes live my life with an awareness that the love I give may not be returned. I consciously acknowledge that fact, usually when resisting the urge to bow out of a relationship that feels less than reciprocal but is still important to me.

And the bit about wanting a connection that will never fade but not allowing myself to be vulnerable enough to seek it out? That stings. I am vulnerable in my familial and friend relationships. It's easy to be vulnerable there because I know what to expect. But romantic relationships? I feel as if I've missed the window for learning how those work. That even if I met someone, I'd be so intimidated by and so embarrassed of my ignorance that I wouldn't know how to be vulnerable. If I met someone extraordinary, who made it easy or worth it to confess my ignorance, I'd risk it, but I think I might have spent all my life's allotment of extraordinary relationships on family and friends.

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subway witch oh you're like extremely cool congrats. you have a taste for the finer (read: shiny) things in life but ur still grounded enough to take the subway, and u do pull off those dark colors

put together ur mall outfit and ill assign you a gender

Not sure how Subway Witch—or any of the other peculiar results available—exists as a gender, but both this image and the description feel very me. I would take the subway...and while I don't like shiny things, specifically, I do enjoy quality in my food, furniture, clothes, etc. And I look fantastic in dark colors, if I do say so myself.

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The Ancient Star A being from somewhere distant, far from here. Ethereal, enigmatic, mysterious, kind, and a catalyst for greatness in others.

Which of My Favourite Specific Character Archetypes Are You?

I love this. I've been told by a couple friends that I help them feel powerful and capable, that I express a conviction that we can accomplish anything we set our minds to which encourages and reassures them. If I am ever a catalyst for others to be great...how fulfilling that would be! And while I still think I resemble tap water too closely to be enigmatic and mysterious, I do try to be kind and feel my own self to be rather ethereal and detached from the reality around me: I'm always trying to feel more anchored to the world.