23 February 2005 @ 09:59 am
grains of sand
I have, sitting on my desk, the name and email address of a woman editor in Chicago. I don't know what she edits, if she's even in the kind of editing that I'm interested in doing, but the name and the email address are waiting for me anyway. There, through my mother's vast connections, for me to make use of. I can write this woman with any questions about the editing profession that I want. I can even, if I wish, express an interest in an internship with her over the summer.

So, why haven't I?

This always seems to happen. I'm quite skilled at imagining my future, but the instant it comes to actually living toward that future, I freak out. And there's absolutely no good reason why I do this. Honestly, what could go wrong? I ask her questions, she answers them. I decide to pursue the internship, find out if I like editing as much as I think I might, and if anything goes badly, I'm moving out of the state, anyway, so no one will ever have to know.

I wish, often, that I were the sort of person who just jumps into things. An adventurous sort, someone who doesn't have to talk herself into trying new things---even new things she really wants to try. How do I turn my brain off? Anyone? Anyone? Bueller?

Ha. I bet Bueller *would* know!

Songs of Innocence, Introduction

You are 'regularly metric verse'. This can take many forms, including heroic couplets, blank verse, and other iambic pentameters, for example. It has not been used much since the nineteenth century; modern poets tend to prefer rhyme without meter, or even poetry with neither rhyme nor meter.

You appreciate the beautiful things in life--the joy of music, the color of leaves falling, the rhythm of a heartbeat. You see life itself as a series of little poems. The result (or is it the cause?) is that you are pensive and often melancholy. You enjoy the company of other people, but they find you unexcitable and depressing. Your problem is that regularly metric verse has been obsolete for a long time.

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[identity profile] mneme-metis.livejournal.com on February 24th, 2005 05:41 am (UTC)
Man, the telepathy is on. I tend to feel almost exactly the same way in similar situations, but you know just how to articulate it. Unfortunately, I have not yet discovered the cure.
Although, if there's still a need for someone to listen to you talking yourself into writing the letter, letter drafts, etc., my ears are available. And you are more then welcome to any encouragement/motivation I can provide. :)
Whatever the process, I know that it will be/is an impressive email because you kick a** at communicating through words, especially written.
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[identity profile] in-omnia.livejournal.com on February 27th, 2005 05:30 am (UTC)
Thanks, P, both for the encouragement and the offer of ears. (Sounds as though I should be giving you sizes and my credit card number or something, huh?) It's always good to hear I'm not the only one who suffers through this, even if neither of us can fix the other's problem with a snap of our fingers.

Sigh. We need The Wisdom of the Ages In A Box (now with Patented Ass Kick). 'Course, if it fits in a box, it'll probably make about as much sense as our Wickhamian language. ;) All the verbs and an occasional indefinite article having been sacrificed for a more convenient size....
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[identity profile] insanedeity.livejournal.com on February 25th, 2005 05:11 pm (UTC)
Mmm... I have this problem. It's why my beautiful solo script is sitting, untouched, unupdated, unfufilled on my bloody hard drive. Instead of beating it's way down the doors of Chicago's most illustrious (and accessable) theaters. Just do it. Stop thinking about it and do it. Make multiple drafts if you have to, but shut that inner critic up, and go.
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[identity profile] in-omnia.livejournal.com on February 27th, 2005 05:41 am (UTC)
::saluting:: Sir, yes SIR! I shall!

Just when I need a kick in the arse...or, should that be just when my inner critic needs a kick in the arse? Regardless, thank you so much for it, Beth. I'm composing rough drafts in my cluttered head as we, er, speak.

And if I may return the favor? Get that script out there, girl. Touch it up, update it, let it reach its full potential, do whatever it needs, and start banging down those doors. I want to see that script on stage. Preferably *before* I move to Texas! So go! Go!

After all, you never know when I might be trampled by longhorns....
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