14 April 2005 @ 03:17 pm
aurora borealis, shinin' down on dallas...
Just call me Aurora. Or Borealis. I'm here, shinin' in my new City, feeling peculiarly Northern and Out of Place for a girl who has always thought of Texas as the closest thing she has to a hometown. I don't know my way around yet, we only *just* got cable (internet and TV)---so I've felt completely disconnected from the world---and our house needs a ridiculous amount of work (new paint, new carpet, new furniture, new garage, etc.). I think for the foreseeable future, I'm stuck in some kind of Limbo. Which always makes me grumpy.

Funny, then, that I stumbled on a mood test and, upon taking the thing, was told

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realization of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having difficulty coping with it. A great deal of strain is involved and you would really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that you can put everything into perspective.

You are feeling under considerable pressure and you are being forced to make concessions. You are not particularly happy with this state of affairs but you feel that you have no alternative. If you were to force issues you would be left out or completely ignored by one and all.

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.

You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavors and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.


Not altogether accurate, especially in the last paragraph, but the second and third paragraphs are peculiarly apropos. (Sev, who is currently lounging by the pool, quite agrees.)

I've had the opportunity to get a lot of reading done lately, though. That's always pleasant, especially when I'm reading something I've put off for a while as a kind of treat...like Robin Hobb's Tawny Man trilogy (the last of three trilogies).

I love her work. I love that it makes me think not only as a writer (which I do whenever I read) but as a reader, too. And her characters are so human---flawed, complex, always learning...and likeable! I'd like to think that someday, maybe decades down the road, my writing will be as good---albeit different, of course, as I have my own style.

Has anyone else (other than сестра, of course ;D) read Robin Hobb? Many of her characters---at least, those in the Six Duchies---have names like Shrewd or Regal or Fool, Starling or Nettle or Verity. These word-names, according to Six Duchies custom, are supposed to shape a person's character, represent the truth of their Selves, or both. So lately I've been pondering what word-name I might have if I lived in the Six Duchies. An idle thought, yes, but it's kind of fun.

Would I choose an animal---like Linnet or Sparrow---or a tree---Ash or Linden or Juniper? Or maybe my favorite flower, Periwinkle---though I prefer the Latin "Vinca" for that one. What about a virtue like Honor or Faith or Hope? (I'd personally like Courage to shape my character a bit stronger.) An attitude---Blithe? A strength---Keen? Or maybe something to do with my chosen profession (ha!) like Sonnet or Verse or Rune.

Any thoughts? Anyone know what they'd want to be called? (And, if you want to go looking, may I recommend a thesaurus rather than a dictionary? Sheesh. I am *such* a geek.)

Bless Robin Hobb for keeping my Limbo-ed mind occupied these past days.... :D

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[identity profile] insanedeity.livejournal.com on April 15th, 2005 09:17 am (UTC)
Howdy!
It's interesting the mood test is so elaborate, I've taken it a couple of times, and it goes through the test and fails to produce and answer, even in a different sequence. Ah.
Hum, word name, no idea ::is miffed you recomended the thesaurus:: a. we know plenty of words b. I play with thesauruses for fun. I see your geek, and raise you on synonym.

Anywho, How are you actually liking Texas? Do tell...
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[identity profile] in-omnia.livejournal.com on April 18th, 2005 06:18 am (UTC)
Re: Howdy!
Re: the mood test...yeah, I had that problem with one of my browsers (mozilla), but not the other (ie)...something peculiar to do with flash player, I believe. ::grimacing:: Wish I knew how to make it work for ya, Czarina.

As for Texas? I don't know that I've really been here long enough to say. I mean, the weather is beautiful---exactly as I like it for April---and I love how open everything is. And even though I'm about as far from Dallas as I was from Chicago, I can see a great deal more stars at night. The people I've met have been very friendly and---you'll appreciate this---a whole bunch of them have commented on my hair...with enjoyment and good-natured curiosity. I love the accents, and though occasionally I drop the "t"s at the end of my words, most of the time I still speak Yankee. If you can call it that. ;)

The grocery stores are...beyond amazing. There's no word for it, really. Everything fresh, everyone friendly and enthusiastic about helping you, the variety staggering. I found salsas imported from Mexico, digestives (aka, manna from heaven) and cream crackers from Ireland, and rare Californian chocolate on the first shopping trip. Food Mecca, I tell you. I could cheerfully hobble in pilgrimmage from my house to the store---it's that good.

'Course, to offset this awesome miracle, I live in what's known as a Dry County. Kinda. We can buy beer and wine in our county...but that's it. So at the end of our first week here, my mom and I traveled a half an hour to the county line to stock up on scotch, tequila, vodka, and various mixer liquors. I don't think I'll ever really get used to *that*.

I also sincerely doubt I'll ever get used to the lack of back roads here. My town has a nice little city centre with a bunch of quirky shops, but beyond that, it's a labyrinthine swirl of highway, subdivisions, and shopping centers. Nothing really connects to much of anything else, and practically everything of use is along a highway...a *big* highway. I can't walk or bike to the library or the grocery store or a restaurant for lunch---although there is a network of nature paths winding in and out of the subdivisions. I am *never* going to run out of flour in the middle of baking cookies again. Too much hassle just to go get a bag.

So, there's the story so far. I'll keep you posted as things settle in. :D
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[identity profile] insanedeity.livejournal.com on April 18th, 2005 09:10 pm (UTC)
Re: Howdy!
when i have brain i'll a) comment b) try IE i used mozilla
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