...do I dare to eat a peach?

No Great Matter

"Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night."
~ Edgar Allan Poe

"Never stay up on the barren heights of cleverness, but come down into the green valleys of silliness."
~ Ludwig Wittgenstein

"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else."
~ C.S. Lewis

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in_omnia

26 July 2005 @ 04:23 am

i have a job!

Though I went in intending to interview for a bookseller position, they offered me lead position. Far as I can tell, that's basically like being an RA of books. It's an entry-level management position with better pay, so I'm delighted. ...And terrified.

I keep telling myself that they wouldn't have offered me the job if they didn't believe me qualified, but sometimes it's so hard to have faith in myself. There's so much room for doubt---what if I'm not (creative, responsible, assertive, capable, experienced, etc.) enough?---and so much fear of failure. I hate this about myself. And as many tactics as I employ to improve my mindset, the fear and the doubt persist.

"Why do we fall?" Yes, yes, I know.... Take it one day at a time, one moment at a time, one problem at a time. But I get ahead of myself, anyway. You are more than what you are. Yes. Yes, this is true. And thank God---literally---for that.

Prayer works best of all.

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mneme-metis.livejournal.com on July 27th, 2005 03:24 am (UTC)

Congratulations!!!!
That is awesome news! I have complete confidence that you will do an excellent job, and I hope that you enjoy work. B&N is extremely lucky to have you. (Hence the better position)

But most important of all, do you get discounts on books? ;) heehee

I'm soo excited for you!! Yay!!

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in-omnia.livejournal.com on July 29th, 2005 04:42 am (UTC)

I *do* get discounts, as a matter of fact. I also get to check out any hard-cover book in the store for two weeks at a time. Which, considering the Library From Hell, is a blessing beyond compare. :D

And thanks for the confidence! I'm trying to keep telling myself that, yes, in fact, B&N *is* lucky to have me (dammit!). I only hope they don't put me in charge of the computer section. Can just see myself calling you and other computer folks in-the-know for advice on what the hell I'm doing. ;)

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insanedeity.livejournal.com on July 28th, 2005 06:39 am (UTC)

Congrads!
And always remember, "Flying is falling and missing the ground." Hope it is better than average retail hell. I am sure you are in all ways superior to the job.

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in-omnia.livejournal.com on July 29th, 2005 04:45 am (UTC)

I hope it's better than average retail hell as well. How I *hate* being told what to do. (Don't point, *hand* the customer the object...ask them if they need assistance...be prepared to help as many as five customers at the same time... huh? what the hell?) But then, I suppose that's work, ain't it?

No wonder I hate working. :)

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