...do I dare to eat a peach? - something that i missed

No Great Matter

"Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night."
~ Edgar Allan Poe

"Never stay up on the barren heights of cleverness, but come down into the green valleys of silliness."
~ Ludwig Wittgenstein

"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else."
~ C.S. Lewis

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in_omnia

31 May 2010 @ 10:45 pm

something that i missed

I have truly wonderful friends. I've been blessed to meet them wherever I live and have managed to maintain most of those friendships even after one of us moves away. The group of friends I have right now are especially amazing: they're the closest I've ever come---with a group of friends, anyway---to feeling as though they're family.

But talking to them about my faith is like talking about dragons. To them, it's all mythology. We can discuss the nuts and bolts of religion, but we can't discuss faith. Faith is belief and heart and, for me, awe and joy and comfort and vulnerability and strength. I don't hold it against them, absolutely not, but it leaves me feeling lonely sometimes. And considering how close and included I usually feel around them, that loneliness aches all the more and leaves me feeling insubstantial somehow.

What I need is to find friends who share my faith and add their fellowship to my life. But that is a lot easier said than done, especially when I've yet to find a church where I feel at home.

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lonely

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mneme-metis.livejournal.com on June 14th, 2010 10:41 pm (UTC)

Aw, sorry to hear that you haven't been able to find a church that's the right fit. I know there's just something very comforting when you have people who can relate to the important aspects of your life.
Just out of curiosity, do your friends have faith in other religions? I suppose it's not really the same, but sometimes understanding what it means to have faith is still something, even if that faith is not in the same thing.
(Also, I'm super excited to meet your friends, especially because I can tell that you guys seem to consider each other almost like family.)

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in-omnia.livejournal.com on June 15th, 2010 12:44 am (UTC)

You know, now that I'm thinking more about it, I think it's less the presence or absence of faith that's the issue and more the depth of that faith. Because a lot of my friends profess to some kind of faith. It's just that they're so uncertain or casual about it. My faith is such a huge part of my life. And I don't doubt it---at least not in a way that most people might understand, if that makes any sense. And so when we talk about faith, my friends are very tentative: "I guess I might believe this, and I suppose I might belong to this religion, but I'm really not sure...what do you think?" And that leads to the nuts and bolts part of the conversation, which is pleasant. What I'm missing, though, is seeing in someone else's eyes that they understand exactly how my faith figures into my life because theirs plays the same role.

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