19 May 2014 @ 09:48 pm
turning over
This has been a rough week. A strange week. A convergence of hopes and uncertainties that has left me extremely aware of all my tender spots...and that I am, in fact, made up of tender spots.

A week of physical and mental exhaustion. Of grief anniversaries and gratitude for flags flying at half-staff. A week where words have seemed a barricade, not a bridge, with me trapped alone with my meanings and everyone else on the other side.

A week where I can do nothing but bang my head against the immutable truth of my father's absence...where I just want to ask one question...just one question, Vati, please: can't you tell me what Kit's profession should be? Because I can't figure it out and I know you'd know.

A week that I'm hoping ends tonight. Because I could really use a new leaf to pen tomorrow upon. Please?
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[identity profile] ludzu-alus.livejournal.com on May 23rd, 2014 06:10 pm (UTC)
Love and good thoughts for you. If you need it, just to know someone's thinking of you, you can put the South Catolina category sign in your sign holder. :)
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[identity profile] in-omnia.livejournal.com on May 26th, 2014 01:19 am (UTC)
Thank you so much, Lissa! One of the first things I thought of when I was struggling through this week was that sign...and though I haven't put it up (too distracted to remember, oy), just thinking of it has really, really helped. ::hugs:: But since I'm thinking of it right now...and I have a moment of calm...I'm going to go put it up. ...After I read it again, of course. :D
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